Dig

I've been debating lately as to what direction I need to move next. I've been slowing saving cash to do two things. One I am wanting to take a trip to Ireland and Scotland. Two, I am have to complete what I could not so many years ago, college.

I realize that in the past I did not have the maturity or dedication obtain the things that I wanted. Things have changed so much. It's all about the capital to finish the job.

I'm pulled toward two directions. On one hand I can continue to work and save and maybe make that trip, or I can adjust my current situation and pursue that degree. The first direction is the easier of the two.

So the thing is, I have to make a decision as to what degree I want. I am kind of all over on this. I know what I've wanted to do since childhood, but I also know what I feel now. See, since I've been a kid I have loved to be outdoors, digging in the dirt. I've always love the search, the mystery of what I may find. Hell, if you were to go to my childhood home and dig near the place I had a sandbox, you will most certainly find many, many toys buried by yours truly. I even buried a box when I was six that contains "treasure". Someday I will go back and dig it up...I think I remember where! Ok, I'm off point now. So when I was a kid I wanted to be an Archaeologist. Not much has changed there. I love the dirt, mystery, and the history or search of.

Now here is where things get, well fuzzy. I am an artistic person. I don't do much with it anymore. A friend tells my I just keep pissing in god's hands, whatever that means. I like to paint, love clay...wait that falls under dirt again! Anyways, I have a talent that I don't use but could and have enjoyed in the past. I feel sometimes I should follow that direction.

I was told this past weekend that I should so be a teacher. You know, I kind of like that idea too. Choices...choices!

One other piece to this puzzle is children. I enjoy working with kids. You could say I am just a big kid myself. I enjoy the time I get to spend with my god children. Somehow those kids allow me to forget the struggles of life, the pain of loss, the chaos that clouds this world. They show me the wonder in the simplest things like a smile or a giggle. Sometimes I think it would do the world a favor by taking time to see things through the eyes of a child.

Hey, am I still on topic or have I been having ADD moments?

So I believe the trick would be to include all those things into my future.

I guess what I am doing here is working out the details of my goal or at least broadcasting it a bit. I know sometimes I seem lost and even like I am drifting but these things always spin around the brain.

So, you wanna dig with me? Let's see what we can find.

Fun.