Thinking

So I’m sitting here thinking in my typical bored but reflective mood. I’m at work. That is an odd title for what I do. I spend a majority of my time bored out of my skull! I can say that I have stayed on here far too long. Originally this was to be a temporary job until I got settled in the Columbus area. I had all intentions of returning to college but it seemed life had other plans. Isn’t that how it always goes? How’s the saying go? Life is what happens while you’re busy making other plans.

So here I sit. I have done more in the last 8 months to change up the status quo than ever before. To be honest I am a bit tired. I have always considered myself a man of ideas. That’s it though, just ideas. I am guilty of over thinking which leads to a million ideas about everything and anything. I’m ready to settle down a bit and not in the traditional sense but in the sense that I need to find that one thing and do it. I know it seems as if I am lost and all over the place but I really am not. I’m just being indecisive. Story of my life! I am caught on this roller coaster trying to do the right thing, because that is what I strive to do. I am seriously considering saving up money over the next couple of months to pay my way into the Ohio Fire Academy. Yes, you read that right. I’m torn between two lofty goals. On one hand I want to help my fellow man, service if you will and what better way than by fighting the one element that has captured my imagination, attention, and respect since I was a youth…Fire. One the other hand I want to be part of academia teaching and learning all the while contributing to the world. See, lofty goals. So it’s all good an well but someone always has to rain on my parade.

Let me make one thing certain. I don’t want to hear about the money as in how much it will cost or how much money is not made doing these things. I think if folks spent more time following their passions and really enjoying their careers the world would be a much better place. Money is not everything, no matter what our parents tell us. And so there it is, spelled out in front of me. This is a fine example of thinking out loud and recording it for prosperity. So what plan will I follow? I think I will see what life throws at me and go with it.

“To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.” Anatole France